Day 204

I'm Sorry

 Vintage Chinchilla jacket

Vintage Chinchilla jacket

I couldn't really think of any other better title for this post than "I'm sorry" (I am wearing a vintage Chinchilla jacket for god sakes!  Have you ever seen a baby chinchilla? OMG I am SO sorry!!) But to be honest, it ended up being a perfect dovetail into an overarching feeling I was having tonight.  The day before yesterday, I wrote about the great thankfulness I feel in my life, but tonight I was abruptly presented with the fact that while I have been the recipient of much wonderful and healing friendship over the past few years, I perhaps have not always been the best friend. And for that I am deeply sorry.  I need to be honest, the past few years have been hard, some of the hardest of my life. Somedays just getting out of bed, and getting my kids dressed and off to school has taken the lion's share of my bandwidth.  Running a business and deciding to take on an archive of this nature has been both simultaneously rewarding and at times, exhausting.  I am not always a sparkling conversationalist, sometimes I am terrible on the phone (a trait both my mother and I shared) And there are certain times that I am desperately happy that I just made it through another day.  So to the friends that I have disappointed, I am sorry. Please forgive me If I made you feel I was unavailable, or disassociated, it was never my intention.  Please know that I am truly thankful for each and every friend, each and every kind comment, smile or piece of feedback.  But I'm still really, really sorry about the jacket.